Il fait mouvais aujourd'hui... Mais il fais beau dans l'âme parce que je sais que l'été va arriver ici, vive l'été!!!!!!!! J'ennuie sans l'été, j'ennuie sans le soleil, sans toutes les choses de l'été... Je rêve de promenade dans une rue inondé de lumière de l'été =)))))

Well, hello world! I am finally back here.... It' been a long time since my last time here... Nothing interesting happened in my crazy life... Everything just stays as it used to be.... I don't know what forced me to come here =))) But yeah here i am.... God i had so many thoughts to write them on here, but everything just disappeared like a second ago... Hmm.... Today i woke up having a thought in my mind that spring is coming , that cheered me =) Finally I've got a cell phone, so now i am in touch with this out laying world =)))) I have to find a job, i really do, because i really want to go somewhere in this summer, haven't decided where exactly but I sure will go somewhere and yeah i need to earn some money for the next trip to the USA in summer 2009, this time I'd probably go to California! Yeah everything is cool, i am in a perfect mood now =)))

So the bitch is back, i am gonna try coming here more often since now, yay!

It's been already 2 days since i have come back home and still, i can't get fucking used to this crazy climat and it's hard to breathe, my head hurts like hell !!!!!!!!!!! i've already got a couple of pills but it doesn't help! Fucking pain, get the fuck out of my head!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ну вот я и дома =)))) Привет Россия, привет Москва... Прилетел во вторник, и уже начал скучать по Америке... Теперь могу сказать что, Америка стала моей второй страной, у меня появилась там вторая семья... Хочу уже обратно... Первый день ходил в универ. сегодня по своему привычному маршруту и понял, что по этому всему я тоже очень очень соскучился, повидался со своими одногрупниками, как всегда опаздал, меня встретили с криками и с орами "ВЕРНУЛСЯ!!!!!!!! АМЕРИКОС""""""""""""""!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Было очень приятно, короче вот так =)

Nu vot teper' mne 20=))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) Hotelos' bi konechno bit' v moscwe seychas =)))

I want to get some job in Moscow to work at the second shift...... Is there anybody who can help me or who can give me some suggestions about it... I want to work with english, some job like that.... I'd really appreciate if you can help me...

Thanx...

Hey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am finally back! God, damn, it's been a long time since my last message here...Well, the first thing i wanna say, i am not in Miami as i wanted to be...But i left fucking Mississippi and now i am in Alabama.... I live in a kida big city which is called Birmingham, sometimes i get this feeling like i am the only white person in this city...I guess 80% of population in this city is black...But it's alright i am getting used to that... It is still a little bit hard to understand black english, but it's ok... So i've got two jobs here, sleeping only 4-5 hours a day, so i need money to save, i'm gonna buy a laptop here, cuz they are really cheap here compare to russian prices... I've also bought a camera, it's really good, but i still don't understand a lot of things in usage of it. I thought that the coast of Mississippi is the hottest place ever, but noooo, here it's even hotter! well, it's not that humid though, but it really burns your skin whenever you stay in the sun for a long time...Now i live in american dorm, with some american guys, they are really nice to me... I'm gonna miss the US so much!!!!!!!!!! I'm definitely coming back here but just in a year, but i will!, and no to the South though, i wanna see some better places, like California and stuff.... I love it here at this new place, i like the room i live in, it is typical american dorm, like in movies and stuff, also it has a lot of international students.... Oh! i was so surprised when i saw a girl wearing a shirt with the word "Ukraine" written on it, while i was shopping at some store, i just came up to her and i asked "are you from Ukraine?" in russian, and she was like "what", i was like " do you speak Russian, i saw you wearing this shirt" and she was like " oh no, it's a shirt of my friend i just borrowed it for a while" i was like "alright'', that was funny though... The first day of working here was really stressful, cuz i couldn't really understand our costumers because of their accent, i hate this black accent, it's actually a dialect which is called Ebonics, it is so different compare to standard English even to American english, they were so mean to me because of that and i was really mad, one of those customers told me " If you can't understand us, you shouldn't have to move to Alabama" and i was like " well, you know what, it's not my problem that you don't want to speak properly and use normal words instead of this weird slang" he got so pissed off, my manager was mad at me....But i hate this fucking rule like " the customer is always right" fuck it! But anyway i like it here....The city is full of hills, it's impossible to walk easily around it = ) I really miss everybody in Russia, i really do! I can't wait until i go back there,
hmm....but from the other point of view i don't want to move out of here, America is my second land, and i've got a second family here... They were so worried about me going to Alabama, that was so sweet..

My english is eating off my french, and starting to kill my russian =) I can say i've started seeing dreams in english, it's cool, and now i can easily hear where differences in dialects in american english, it's cool, my level has grown up so fucking a lot since i just came here...

See y'all later guys!

...Koroche tema takaya, ya skoree vsego sorvus' v Miami blizhayshuyu nedelyu... Net menya nikto ne vigonyayet iz etogo doma, a na oborot ochen' vse perezhivayut chto ya uezzhayu, no ya prosto tut ne smogu zhit' odin bez druzyey, da i mnogo tut ne zarabotayu... Menya vse otgovarivayut, no net mne nado zarabotat' dostatochno, chtobi okupit' poyezdku, i prosto chtobi u menya bili den'gi, nu na pervoye u menya den'gi est' i oni ne prikosnovenniye, ne budu ih tratit' dazhe esli ostanus' sovsem bez deneg... Karmannih deneg kotoriye mogu tratit' ostalos' ne mnogo, na odin bilet do Miami i za mesyac prozhivaniya v syomnoy komnate, na edu deneg voobshe net, rabotayu tut poslednyuy nedelyuu v etom shtate, vot budut den'gi na yedu zarabativat'... U menya est' v Miami paru druzey, tak chto mozhet bit' i u kogo nibud' iz nih na 2 pervih nedelii ostanovlyus', nado budet srazu iskat' 2 raboti... Tut ya ne mogu nayti 2 rabotu potomuychto na pervoy rabote u menya vse vremya menyayut rasspisaniye, ya mogu rabotat' i s 5 utra i s 2 dnya i s 9 vechera, vot tak... Tak chto koroche vse vot tak =) Eto konechno zhest', tem bolee ya ne v Rossii, v Rossii hot' kak nikak ya doma, a tut za okeanom prihoditsya vizhivat' kak mogu, budu pahat' sleduyushiye 2 mesyaca, no ob etom sovershenno ne zhaleyu, vse taki kakaya nikakaya no vse zhe shkola zhizni =) vse budet horosho ya znayu... Eto budet samoye offigennoye i ne zabivayemoye leto v moyey zhizni i offigenniy experience!!!

...Finally, after a crazy week of depression i finally got rid of it... I've been feeling so bad until today... I had some reasons to have it, the first reason is the "home-sick"...God, i could never imagine that i would have such a crazy home-sick, but god, i really do. I mean, i really like and appreciate everything that i have here and their attitude to me, they have just become my second family and it's really good, this house is also really great it has everything that i couldn't even dream about and so on... The second reason is that i am leaving in two weeks and i don't know where to go! I can really stay here for the rest of my program, but when she is away i will just die here alone, because i won't be able to go anywhere for fun, to see our friends and stuff like that, because all the fun places are so far away, this town is so boring it has nothing... I have some plans to go to Miami, New York, Alabama, or staying here... The third reason was a girl who i am living with... God she got crazy depressed also in the beginning of this week, she made me feel the same way by that... That sounds like a soup opera, but it is the way it is =) Whole this week I've been out of this world, because i couldn't move anywhere because the only way to go out and see our friends or have fun is to go to another city by car, so we always go there on her car, but this week, she's been stuck in her room, i couldn't even get online to talk to anybody or at least to talk to my parents because the PC is staying in her room... I was so mad, i came here all the way across the ocean from another part of the world and i can't even talk to my parents, god, i was so mad, but i could control myself, that was a week of hell, everyday was just the same i would just come back home from work and then just watch fucking TV until it was time to go to sleep.. And finally i couldn't stand it anymore, i just came in her room, and we had a long conversation...So this time is kinda hard for her too because she is going to study to another State and she has never been on her own that long that she will be, she's kinda scared about it, but we worked it out, now everything is like always, and it's cool =)))) God that crazy summer i will never forget!!!!!!!!! Such a great experience
So everybody has a depression sometimes and we have to accept and understand someone's problems and help as much as we can..

That's my Columbian girlfriend =)

Tol'ko chto poymal etogo pauka, blyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ya takih paukov nikogda v zhizni ne videl, pizdecccccccccc, prichem ya snachala na nego chut' ne nastupil.........

living room




my room





Our car





our town

Once i dreamed i had an interview with GOD...
"So, you would like to interview me?" God asked...
"If you have time," I answered...
God smiled..
"My time is eternity..."
"What questions do you have for me?"
And i said...
"What makes you surprised the most about humankind?"

"That they get bored with childhood, they rush to grow up and then they dream to be children again" answered God...

"They spend their health making money and then they spend their money to heal themselves."

"They think too much about future and forget about present, such that they live neither in the future nor in the past"

"That they live as if they will never die and die as though they had never lived"

He took my hand and we were silent for a while, then i asked,

"As parent, what are some life's lessons you want your children to learn?"

"To learn that they cannot make anyone love them, All they can do is let themselves be loved"

"To learn that it is not good to compare themselves to others"

"To learn to forgive by practicing forgiveness"

"To learn that it takes only a few seconds to hurt those whom they love and it takes many years to heal those wounds"

"To learn that a reach person is not the one wo has the most, but is the one who needs the least"

"To learn that there are people who love them dearly, but simply don't know how to express or show their feelings yet"

"To learn that two persons can look at the same thing, but see it differently"

"To learn that it is not enough to forgive one another, they must also forgive themslelves"

"Thank you for this time," i said humbly...

"Is there anything else you'd like your children to know?"

God smiled and said...

"Just know that i am here"

"Always"

BLYA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YA SKUCHAYU PO DRUZ'YAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OCHEN' HOCHU VAS VSEH VIDET'!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I MNE ESHE TUT 3 MESYACA TUSOVAT'SYA!!!!!

i eshe nikogda ne dumal chto budu tak po russkomu yaziku skuchat'.

Po russki obshayus' krayne redko, odin raz v nedelyu s rebyatami s russkimi vstrechayus'i, inogda po skypu s druz'yami i rodnimi razgovarivayu, nu eto kogda vremya est' =(

Lovlyu sebya na misli chto sovsem redko dumayu na russkom, i sni mne na englishe snyatsya.... nu hotya ono i k luchshemu, zato english budet offigenniy cherez 3 mesyaca, hotya i tak uzhe svobodno razgovarivayu... Kak priedu voz'mus' konkretno za French, i za Portugese..

We're going to take all our friends and go on the beach, to swim under the moon's reflection!!!!!!!!! And it's so cool when you swim among the jellyfish and they all reflect under the moon-light =) The moon is full, the water is calm and super warm, the send is so white and smooth, what can i add here??? It's a paradise!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And the only thing i wish now is to have all my friends from Moscow by my side now and go on the beach together....

first sex in America, nice =))))))))))))) she wasn't american though =)))))

Today we met some guys from Russia, they seem cool, so we're going to hang around with them tonight =))

I'm going to change my job.....

... Suis je dans le paradis??? Hmm... L'Amerique est un pays tres different... Toutes les choses ici sont tres differents... Les gens sont differents... Ils pensent differemment, ils agissent differemment... Parfois ils semblent etre des enfants... Et il ne signifie qu'ils sont stupides, ils sont juste differnets... Je dirais qu'ils sont plus polis et plus gentils...Quand tu marche dans la rue, tu peux voir comme les autre te regardent, la plupart d'eux juste sourient a toi... Peut etre il existe comme ca parce que cette ville est petite, peut etre... Je vois comme des americans normaux vivent... Je vois leur problems... Actulement cette place ou j'habite maintenant me fait voir comment leur governement agit pour eux... Leur governement depense beaucoup d'argent sur l'Armee mais. Le gouvernement n'aide pas vraiment des gens avec leur problems interieur du pays... Par example cette situation avec l'ouragan Katrina...Quelques gens n'ont pas d'places pour hubiter encore, apres ce quand leur maisons ont ete detruit par l'ouragan... Il est triste.... Les Etats Unis ont beaucoup de problems interieur du pays... Il n'y a pas de paradis sur la terre, non...

....Hey people, i have just come home....Fuck, i've just had a fucking shot of Vodka, that is sick, i'm getting drunk =)))) The only thing i hate now is that we were driving high again, i am so high right now.... Americans are so crazy driving high and stuff.... But they are cool though, actually one of them is watching what i am writing right now =))))) there is four of us now in the house, 2 of us are so high and two of us including me are high and drunk =)))) I am always fucking sceard of driving fuckin' high cuz we can be pulled over by fucking cops, but in the same time it's kinda cool driving high =) But, shit, i gotta stop doing this shit... It's so freaking hot over here, it's about 45 degrees outside and it feels like hell... And i've heard that it's going to be a crazy storm over here... I have never though before that i would ever feel the homesick, that is so weird, i don't really miss Russia but i miss all those people that i know and that are close to me...That's so weird... By the way it is Aaron's birthday today that's why i am drunk now, we have "Stolichnaya" here =)))) Aw, one girl has just passed me by saying i wanna sleep and turnrd in my room, maybe that means something???? mmm....good question.. I think i'll go to check it out =))) Ok see ya guys, stay tune and be cool all the way! Bye